Sha == Gratitude

Real life isn't always going to be perfect or go our way . But the recurring acknowledgement of what is working in our lives can help us not only to survive but surmount our difficulties...

Thank You Lord 4 Giving Me Second Opportunities
I Won't Let U Down
Thank You Lord 4 All the things U Give Me

Another T-Junction of mine

If doubt is challenging you and you do not act, doubts will grow. Challenge the doubts with action and you will grow.

Doubt and action are incompatible.

John Kanary

In the middle of another path of life

Which one should i choose for the best ?

Which way is my way ?

Which area is a safe ones 4 me ?

Please God help me with Luck

And I'll struggle hard just to get what i want and what i deserve 2 get

Binguuuuuuuuuuuuuuung !

Besok jwb an awalnya ... Besok - besok nya lagi

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Luck is a dividend of sweat. The more you sweat, the luckier you get.

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Sometimes, we just don't know enough about what we are trying to achieve

Just Take off negative atribute that i put on unconsciously

These whole weeks, i read number of pshycological books, plus ESQ (my sister's book who fall 2 sleep during the training ,but the book's wonderful n inspiring). And not long ago, i've been consulted to psycholog wanna be (therapist). He was one of my new friends , coz of that reason, i have 2 pay null per hour. Plus i've got alot of information , guidance from someone who know spiritual psychology(psikologi agama).It cure my heart n my mental pain. COz they (whom i asked advices) never know me before, so they advice, judgement, alternative thought that they offered me , was objective . Such a great & long lasting contemplation

And the result's, i turn to smile again.Even the fact, i have forgot how to smile for months sincerely. All out're anger, guilt, and tears. But now i want to confess that i am happy.The power of guilt still exist, but it's trying to find the best way out. It what we called way of life.

Frankly speaking i am not a psycho, nor schizophren, and not also the one who's suffering split personalities, It's all because there's "huge" GAP between the ideal and real condition.

About college, honestly i planned it. I feel reluctant to graduate in 8th semester. Why ? Coz , @ that time , i thought someone who deserves to graduate only her(L.I.A) .I thought it's mean(evil),if i and other friends graduate in a perfect time (ini hanya pola pikir yg aq buat sndiri, jadi kalo ga pas, ya maklumi).So i don't want to graduate with my other friends, i just don't deserve that.So to pay a little bit of guilt(menebus rasa bersalah), I postponed graduation.Even i've ever thougt to let my bachelor degree away .. just loose it(unfortunately, i'm too cowards 2 live without a paper of degree),so i don't do it.Someone said it was riddiculous but .... it's me

So hopefully iam able to rearrange my entire life and graduate in 9th semester.

About work ;I have wonderful n nice partners in work. Coz i'm a new guy (read: woman)so very often, they asked me more than what i have to do even it's not my responsibilites,some said it's exhausted ... coz i am still young, still need 2 learn new things , still capable do hard works , SO NO PROBLEMO. Whatever the job is, as long as i can like it , it turn to be such a fun job

Oaaaalaah ... Ini toh yg nama nya dunia kerja,it's totaly different compare to college world.my Soft Skill is still in a low level ,thx god , i've got place, to learn and abilities + opportunities 2 do COOP.U don't have to be smart 2 make U cool in a work !

Oh ya, recently, i met alot of new people , gather with them , and adapt all the time. trying to be nice , have empathy,is my daily to do, eventhough i'm still nervous, unconfident and "kagok",coz i used to be in front of computer not people, so kurang mahir ber basa basi. It's the important things of work , everyone needs 2 be respected right ? Gesekan - gesekan dalam kerja pasti ada , pas rapat pun bisa jadi nigthmare, shoutedl one to another, kind of new experience 2 me ... i am getting used 2 it

Here, i also met cool people, cool in a work,cool in religion, and also cool in family.Wherever U R the important things 're FOCUS, ADAPTATION,Totality & Integrity ... I've learn much2 lesson from them .Life is only a choice...

It has been 2 months i'm here,so if i leave next months, oo i will miss them and the atmosphere here most....And COOP pals , we're getting closer day by day but then there's time to say goodbye , It's life ...there's nothing last ever after .. no eternal things here

If u build house according to everyone's advices , U will build a crooked house. Just be smart to choose

Competition is the keen cutting edge of business, always shaving away at costs

While good things're invented in Laboratorium (R&D), Good Product's established in Marketing Department

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Kecewa pada dunia...GO Blog !!!! (^-------^)

Last Week Days were tough enough
Full of pressure Hundred of demanding from others that i failed to fulfill
Till i reach to where i can't stand it any longer
SO On a weekend
... Just sit back ,& re think
Where am I ?
What am I doing ?
What's next then ?
What do I want ?
What can I do ?
SO ON

Dawn till Dust on 070707,
"nyekar" ke lia, ke MJ, ke tante(All beloved palls ,& forgotten ones )
Then just went to my GrandMa's house (it took 12 hours just to go there)
met and huge all the relatives that i miss so much :)

Sunday noon went back to Sby
Monday morning ,
work ...work ...
With a brand new spirit
With a brand new hope
Don't know what kind of this feeling .... passionate ... maybe

Even i failed in academics stuff this semester ...
i just called it "How unlucky I am! "
but not in a work
Work hours are happy hours for me
Now i have succeeded adapt there
Working with people whose age is same as my parents
But it's not a problem any more

i love the way i do today


I thought that if i loose so many friends ...
i will end up like a poor lonely "Eleanour Rigby"
BUt .... it's not like that ....

People comes people Go
Some left footprints Some aint't
Deal with it ... OK !

less rest ... need some ..

If only i have more than one "me"
If only i am able to be there , here , or else @ the same time
If only i have good , fit physical and psychological condition
that can energize and last long more than 24 hours
If only time can be stopped , played , rewind the way i like

If only ...

it'll be easier for me to fulfill anything on demand
i won't let any other down

But that a stupid , riddiculuos , fool wishes

rejoice in our suffering, suffering produce perseverance, perserverance - character and character hope

Horeeee ...
This week is a quiet week ... it's a holiday ... And then final test will begin soon ...
It means also , one side job of mine (being an asisstant for 2 classes) is over ...
biyuh ... it's finally over

Oops it's almost over (^-^)

I started with a clumsy way , feeling unconfidence , as you know it's a big classes , and only one woman in the class besides me ! .
Just imagine that ...
For me, being visible is unsecure. I never felt comfortable in front of 30 - 60 people .

And when i have to start the class without a lecturer , ooooh it's the worst time
Hehehe ... fortunately these kind of burden(in the beginning) turned to be a challenge
And i passed it ...

Oh ya , Feeling guilty again
@ the end of last months , i asked someone to promote me for a job , coz i need an extra money, but when the job is ready to take,i doubt it for several reasons . Some because of unfinished TA(my undergraduate final project), another flash opportunities from my lecturer that i can't miss & mess up, plust the announcement for COOP comes tooo late.
And the worst thing i'm incapable to say sorry, i just disappear ..
4 JepCoolGuy i'm so sorry , if we meet again, if i ol again , i will ask 4 an apology.

3 june 2007
There's a reunion in DOM's house for 3p2
I was sick but i insist to come . THere i met my senior high school friends.It's fun enough .. laughing all the time (^-^) Except their position , they ain't change at all ... HAHAHAHA ... Wonderful time i had this months .

SOme of them , decide to get a master degree , some works , and coz most of them're doctors , so most decide to practice in hospital ...
The fact is they had graduated ..And most who studied @ ITS 're only able to graduate in march08 or more ... Only one i guess and it's not me who graduates in this sept...

Then in the same weeks got some wise words "Kebahagiaan adanya pada tingkat syukur seseorang" from one of my lecturer , and another friends added "NGapain iri ama yg dah lulus , selama kita g membuang waktu kita begitu aja" ... Sounds i'm looking for a "rationalitation" pembenaran ... It might be true ...

It's all because My TA change from LBS(location based service) into buiding mail service that capable send sms ... It means i had to study all over again mail server (i had bad experience in Computer network practice during 4th semester mostly in IMAP , & SMTP) so i'd never imagine that i will deal with these things all over again .. even i had decide using kerio ....


But listen to my fave song ... then .. it describe my feeling and most of 3p2 gals .. !

SO ADIOS ... Sayonara ... Zai Jian ... Bye ...

One of the best things we can do in our lives is this:

Some good Advice for Me , and for anyone who's lost their own starting point

To solve any problem or to reach your goal, you don't need to know all the answers in advance. But you must have a clear idea of the problem or the goal you want to reach.

All you have to do is know where you're going. The answers will come to you of their own accord.

Don't procrastinate when faced with a big difficult problem, break the problem into parts, and handle one part at a time.

If you can get up the courage to begin, you have the courage to succeed.

It's the job you never start that takes the longest to finish.

Don't worry about what lies dimly at a distance, but do what lies clearly ahead.

Your biggest opportunity is where you are right now. Once you begin you're half done.

when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody You want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible

Do not put limits on yourself. So many dreams are waiting to be realized.

Decisions are too important to leave to chance. Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying. The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets. Do not take things too seriously. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Realize that it is never too late. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.

Have hearth and hope and happiness. Take the time to wish upon a start.

Believe in your heart that something wonderful is about to happen.

Love your life.

Believe in your own powers and your own potential and in your own innate goodness.
Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive.
Discover each day the magnificent awesome beauty in the world.
Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day.
Reach within to find your own specialness.
Amaze yourself and rouse those around you to the potential of each new day.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.
This is the essence of your humanity. Let those who love you help you.

Trust enough to be able to take.
Look with hope to the horizon of today for today is all we truly have.
Live this day well.
Let a little sun out as well as in.
Create your own rainbows.
Be open to all your possibilities - All possibilities and Miracles.
Always believe in Miracles.

Boleh dunk , aq bermimpi ? Boleh dunk , aq berusaha sekuat tenaga mewujudkan mimpi itu ? Boleh kan ! ?!

Chayo ! Fighting ! Ganbate !

You see,
you can do anything
if you put your focus on how to do it
rather than on why you can't
This is What I call Challenge
Remember, Dreams will never hurt you ,
until you hurt yourself by always seeing the dark side ,the failure
than the bright side , the joy of success