Sha == Gratitude

Real life isn't always going to be perfect or go our way . But the recurring acknowledgement of what is working in our lives can help us not only to survive but surmount our difficulties...

Thank You Lord 4 Giving Me Second Opportunities
I Won't Let U Down
Thank You Lord 4 All the things U Give Me

Hitori De ... Unbelieveble ..

Bisa juga aq jadi Gembel
Kayak lagunya Sting --> Iam an English Man in New York
Nobody trust me now, so i have 2 struggle hard to reach ones
Thx God, U never left me alone.
U gave me such a nice , priceless gift
Some1 who i can trust n trust me , n she can control all of my attitude
Thx God , U get us Met
I'll prove , i can be a better person , a nice good person again
It's all because of her
And I pledge that i will not give up with anything
Coz i want to see her happy n smile again

Ga nyangka , jalan hidup aq begini
Belum pernah aq merasa sesusah ini
Tapi aq bahagia loh
Aneh kan ?
Dah sering "keleleran" di jalan , knal brandalz , melupakan waktu
Kehidupan yang ga pernah aq bayangkan aq lalui





Terima Kasih mempertemukan aq dg Nya
Aq jadi punya tujuan hidup lagi
Semula grafik hidup aq turun drastis
Saat ini sedang merangkak naik
Dan aq jadi org yg bener2 beda

Is it UR PLAN God ?

All of our loneliness, worry and fear
seems to fade in the presence of a friend
who never judges but stands alongside with loyalty,
It gives us what we need to be a friend as well

Aq yang enggan berteman dekat
Di dekat kan dengan org yang "begitu lah"
Sekarang Ego aq dah berkurang dikit demi dikit
Pelajaran hidup yang ga bakal aq lupain



tapi semua ini akan segera berakhir
Dan aq kembali dengan rutinitas itu
1 bulan aq nge Gembel ...

Di luar sana
Banyak yg men judge aq
Di luar sana
Banyak yg tidak percaya aq
Tapi di dalam sini
Masih ada yang mempercayai aq
Di dalam sini
Masih ada yang rela mengorbankan banyak hal demi Aq

It doesn't make any sense
But it happened

I learn Gratitude , Faith , Integrity from her
Now we're apart
but she's still there in my deepest heart
Thousands of Thanx God
She change me a lot

No God, no peace. Know God, know peace.

My life resembles with "In to The Wild" in different Context

A hero is someone who understands the responsibility that comes with his freedom

Siang ini imam nya dari Palestine , yang sedang roadshow ...
Lingkungan tmp q bekerja saat ini, benar2 kondusif u/ menjadi kaffah
What a nice place 4 the 1st formal job !
Jadi kebawa religious deh
Tadi ceramahnya lumayuan political gtu , walo imam nya sudah berusaha membelokkan ke arah pembicaraan lain. Tetep aja pertanyaan ke situ2 aja ...
SAlut aq ama Imam plus pejuang lain di Palestine
Ga nyangka netes jg air mata aq
Dunia yg bener2 berbeda buat aq
Jadi pengin do something just 2 help ....
wanna be a hero ....
is it possible 4 the tiny little goath of mine ? 4 the small me , can it be true ?

A hero is someone who has given his or her life to something bigger than oneself.
View quotes by Joseph Campbell

Marhaban ya ramadhan (^____^)

Semoga ramadhan kali ini membawa berkah dan pengampunan
bagi aq dan semua yg mendambakan hal yang sama

Just Take off negative atribute that i put on unconsciously

These whole weeks, i read number of pshycological books, plus ESQ (my sister's book who fall 2 sleep during the training ,but the book's wonderful n inspiring). And not long ago, i've been consulted to psycholog wanna be (therapist). He was one of my new friends , coz of that reason, i have 2 pay null per hour. Plus i've got alot of information , guidance from someone who know spiritual psychology(psikologi agama).It cure my heart n my mental pain. COz they (whom i asked advices) never know me before, so they advice, judgement, alternative thought that they offered me , was objective . Such a great & long lasting contemplation

And the result's, i turn to smile again.Even the fact, i have forgot how to smile for months sincerely. All out're anger, guilt, and tears. But now i want to confess that i am happy.The power of guilt still exist, but it's trying to find the best way out. It what we called way of life.

Frankly speaking i am not a psycho, nor schizophren, and not also the one who's suffering split personalities, It's all because there's "huge" GAP between the ideal and real condition.

About college, honestly i planned it. I feel reluctant to graduate in 8th semester. Why ? Coz , @ that time , i thought someone who deserves to graduate only her(L.I.A) .I thought it's mean(evil),if i and other friends graduate in a perfect time (ini hanya pola pikir yg aq buat sndiri, jadi kalo ga pas, ya maklumi).So i don't want to graduate with my other friends, i just don't deserve that.So to pay a little bit of guilt(menebus rasa bersalah), I postponed graduation.Even i've ever thougt to let my bachelor degree away .. just loose it(unfortunately, i'm too cowards 2 live without a paper of degree),so i don't do it.Someone said it was riddiculous but .... it's me

So hopefully iam able to rearrange my entire life and graduate in 9th semester.

About work ;I have wonderful n nice partners in work. Coz i'm a new guy (read: woman)so very often, they asked me more than what i have to do even it's not my responsibilites,some said it's exhausted ... coz i am still young, still need 2 learn new things , still capable do hard works , SO NO PROBLEMO. Whatever the job is, as long as i can like it , it turn to be such a fun job

Oaaaalaah ... Ini toh yg nama nya dunia kerja,it's totaly different compare to college world.my Soft Skill is still in a low level ,thx god , i've got place, to learn and abilities + opportunities 2 do COOP.U don't have to be smart 2 make U cool in a work !

Oh ya, recently, i met alot of new people , gather with them , and adapt all the time. trying to be nice , have empathy,is my daily to do, eventhough i'm still nervous, unconfident and "kagok",coz i used to be in front of computer not people, so kurang mahir ber basa basi. It's the important things of work , everyone needs 2 be respected right ? Gesekan - gesekan dalam kerja pasti ada , pas rapat pun bisa jadi nigthmare, shoutedl one to another, kind of new experience 2 me ... i am getting used 2 it

Here, i also met cool people, cool in a work,cool in religion, and also cool in family.Wherever U R the important things 're FOCUS, ADAPTATION,Totality & Integrity ... I've learn much2 lesson from them .Life is only a choice...

It has been 2 months i'm here,so if i leave next months, oo i will miss them and the atmosphere here most....And COOP pals , we're getting closer day by day but then there's time to say goodbye , It's life ...there's nothing last ever after .. no eternal things here

If u build house according to everyone's advices , U will build a crooked house. Just be smart to choose

Kecewa pada dunia...GO Blog !!!! (^-------^)

Last Week Days were tough enough
Full of pressure Hundred of demanding from others that i failed to fulfill
Till i reach to where i can't stand it any longer
SO On a weekend
... Just sit back ,& re think
Where am I ?
What am I doing ?
What's next then ?
What do I want ?
What can I do ?
SO ON

Dawn till Dust on 070707,
"nyekar" ke lia, ke MJ, ke tante(All beloved palls ,& forgotten ones )
Then just went to my GrandMa's house (it took 12 hours just to go there)
met and huge all the relatives that i miss so much :)

Sunday noon went back to Sby
Monday morning ,
work ...work ...
With a brand new spirit
With a brand new hope
Don't know what kind of this feeling .... passionate ... maybe

Even i failed in academics stuff this semester ...
i just called it "How unlucky I am! "
but not in a work
Work hours are happy hours for me
Now i have succeeded adapt there
Working with people whose age is same as my parents
But it's not a problem any more

i love the way i do today


I thought that if i loose so many friends ...
i will end up like a poor lonely "Eleanour Rigby"
BUt .... it's not like that ....

People comes people Go
Some left footprints Some aint't
Deal with it ... OK !

Three Stages in Life

In each person's life there are three stages.
When one was young, people said, "He will do something."
as he grew older and did nothing, they said,...
"He could do something if he found himself."
When he was white-haired, people said of him,
"He might have done something if he had tried anything."

Skrg blogger pake bahasa, rada weirdo gtu ...

A thousand Pray A million ones but One voice ... was heard

Pernah merasa menjadi orang paling O'on sedunia ?
Akhir - Akhir ini Aq selalu merasakan nya .
Sikap inferiority semakin kentara hari demi hari .
Hal ini yang meyakinkan aq ga pantes lulus semester ini.
Knapa ?
Waduh walo cita - cita bukan menjadi programmer ,
tapi entah knapa dg gelar S.Kom dan dengan kemampuan coding aq yg g seberapa
... wah memalukan sekali ....

Minggu ini aq banyak belajar,
bahwa dunia programming yang aq knal masih selebar daun kelor
Tiap saat , tiap detiknya selalu saja ada orang yang membuat aq terkesima dengan kemampuan nya ...
Mau jadi apa aq ini ? M

inggu ini lumayan padat aq belajar, .net remoting , rmi , web services , hibernate , Jboss seam, Cimande.
Hal - hal asing yang cenderung aq hindari ternyata harus aq pelajari juga.
Bisa dikatakan lumayan mengasyikkan , bisa ga tidur aq kalo dah utak atik ini.

Tingkat kemampuan seseorang memang berbeda , buat beberapa orang , coding , logics merupakan hal yang mudah dan bisa diselesaikan dalam waktu singkat.
Tapi tidak buat aq , aq butuh waktu laaaamaaaaa untuk mengerti konsepnya
dan implementasi kan nya ke codingan .
Jadi buat temen2 harap maklum,
kalo saya harus kerja ekstra keras untuk memahami hal - hal ini , yah mgkn dah jalan ny begini ,
harus tertatih - tatih mengejar temen2 ...

Ada yang mengatakan ..
Aq rakus makanya TA aq ga selesai - selesai , tiap ada hal baru n menarik hati langsung di coba - coba , jadinya ga fokus , ruang lingkup melebar kemana - mana ...
Satu hal yang mgkn bisa aq jawab ,
aq merasa masa - masa terakhir kuliah di TC adalah masa - masa paling berharga ,
kapan lagi bisa menikmati masa - masa belajar tanpa tanggungan.
Setelah lulus ?
mungkin kah aq memilih kerja jadi programmer ?
wah g ada yang tau hari esok ...
Jadi Manfaat in waktu - waktu terakhir ini ...
Selama aq bisa mempertanggungjawabkan segalanya termasuk masalah finansial ke ortu ...

Trus ga sedikit orang yang protes bahwa gaya hidup aq ga sehat ,
tidur kurang (kata mereka), ga pernah olah raga , dalam ruangan ber ac trus , ga sehat betul ...
Ya aq akui benar ada nya , tapi tidak sepenuh nya benar.
Karena aq percaya umur dah ada yang ngatur ,
dan aq memang lebih menghargai hidup singkat berkualitas
daripada hidup lama menghabiskan jatah waktu saja ...
Toh smua dari kita pasti menunggu bukan .... ?
Hal yang paling aq takutkan adalah meninggal
saat aq sudah tak produktif lagi , tak berguna, ga bisa ngapa2 in seperti barang terbuang sia - sia ...
Jadi DIE Young ... it's not a problem for me

Tambahan minggu ini banyak tugas , banyak demo dan responsi , smua merasa pada titik lelah nya ,
dosen pun demikian . Mahasiswa pun banyak yang berjibaku terutama yang ke cegat masalah absensi.
Tidak ada dosen yang ingin mahasiswa nya tidak lulus ,
tapi audit dari jurusan menyebabkan peraturan batasan absensi ...
Gesekan konflik terjadi ...
Seandainya semua saling memahami ...
dunia pasti indah :)

tetapi kalo ditanya harapan mu apa ?
Pasti aq jawab LULUS ...
Karena setelah lulus itu berarti aq bisa benar2 lepas menjalani hidup yang aq inginkan , dimana saja ,
karena ortu sudah merasa menyelesaikan tugas nya dan siap melepas aq menempuh jalur hidup baru ...
Lagian mgkn aq dah bosan berlama - lama di kmpus ... bertemu dengan org2 itu saja ...
dan mgkn org2 lain jg merasa dah basi melihat wajah aq ...
Jadi impian terbesar aq saat ini adalah lulus ,toh aq sudah resign , jadi ga ada alasan TA ga selesai2 ..

Hal yang agak aq sesali adalah makin jauh nya aq akan religi. Jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh ...

God Speaking
Author: Unknown

The man whispered, "God, speak to me"
And a meadowlark sang.
But the man did not hear.

So the man yelled "God, speak to me"
And the thunder & lightning rolled across the sky.
But the man did not listen.

The man looked around and said, "God, let me see you."
And a star shined brightly.
But the man did not see.

And, the man shouted, "God, show me a miracle"
And a life was born.
But the man did not notice.

So, the man cried out in despair, "Touch me, God, and let me know you are here"
Whereupon, God reached down and touched the man.
But the man brushed the butterfly away and walked on.

I found this to be a great reminder that God is always around us in the little and simple things that we take for granted.. even in our electronic age... so I would like to add one more:
The man cried "God, I need your help"
And an e-mail arrived reaching out with good news and encouragement.
But the man deleted it and continued crying...

The good news is that you are loved. Don't miss out on a blessing because it isn't packaged the way that you expect.

the magic of life -reborn-

It's kinda weirdo why should i post some screen like above
Everything is happened for a reason
Me here for something ...

Minggu ini banyak yang terjadi
ada yang menyenangkan , dan ada pula yang menyedihkan
tapi thx god i'm still alive
masih diberi kesibukan, kebingungan , kehampaan , kebahagian , kecemburuan dan ke-an lainya

Manusia memang komplex
dari mulai anatomi tubuhnya , struktur saraf otak nya apalagi kepribadian nya
Sedang mencoba memahami yang mampu aq pahami
dan menerima apa yang mampu aq terima
plus mencoba mengerti misteri kehidupan

Satire Joke .. but a little bit fun :)

-- Jangan putus asa , tidak semua orang menilai manusia dari fisiknya ..
DONT JUDGE THE BOOK BY THE COVER ..
(Jangan menghukum buku karena dia meninggalkan koper).

-- Jangan salahkan diri anda kalau anda jelek, salahkanlah orangtua anda, karena jelek itu keturunan ..
LIKE FATHER LIKE SON
(Suka bapaknya, suka juga sama anaknya).

-- Perbaiki inner beauty anda, itu kalau anda merasa sisi luar anda udah ancur ga ketolong lagi ..
THE BEAUTY IS UNDER THE SKIN
(Jadi cakep kalo udah ganti kulit)

-- Jgn sakit ati kalo dikatain jelek,cuek aja, pokoknya kafilah m'gonggong [censored] tetap berlalu
.. NO GAIN WITHOUT PAIN
(Ga dapet duit kalo ngga kesakitan dulu...kaya kuda lumping).

-- Jadilah diri anda anda sendiri, kalau anda jelek syukurilah kejelekan anda ..
JUST BEE YOURSELF
(Kesengat tawon, itulah kamu (muka kamu)).

-- Kalau orang lain menilai anda jelek, jangan skeptis, penilaian manusia tidak selalu benar ...
THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE
(Yang bener boleh keluar).

-- Cakep-jelek itu tergantung lingkungan, misalnya anda disini jelek tapi di Afrika bisa paling ganteng
.. THE RIGHT MAN IN THE WRONG PLACE
(Orang disebelah kanan, salah tempat, harusnya disebelah kiri)

-- Cinta tidak memandang cakep atau jelek, gak percaya? Tanyakan hal ini sama orang jelek
.. LOVE IS BLIND
(Pacarilah orang buta).

there is something beautiful in ugly things (^_^)

The Beauty In Ugly ...by Jason Mraz

she's so big hearted,
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
its a pretty person's world

but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own

if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart

you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
well you are fresh, you're face is fabulous
don't forget you're one of a kind

when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart

you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ulgy
well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart and oh
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
see the beauty in a ugly

What a messy life i had this day

Sebel !!!!!
Maaf mengotori blog ini dengan keluhan lagi
Hari ini aq bisa dikatakan aq sial , mungkin karena akhir - akhir ini terlalu sering ketawa sehingga cenderung lalai akan banyak hal . Yup smoga hari ini menjadi puncak berantakan nya hari - hari q , dan melenceng nya semua target itu.
Begini , hari dimulai dengan hari ini sebagai hari ke 40 ... Pikiran mengacu ke hal - hal itu , ditambah pelampiasan dengan becanda bareng temen , pulang nya seperti biasa aq ngelamun sambil motoran , membiarkan LONG TERM MEMORY aq bekerja mencari jalan menuju rumah. Di daerah dukuh kupang , naik - naik an itu , dipepet ama 2 anak muda , diganggu dikit , merasa terganggu , aq ngebut secepat kilat dari mereka . Sesampai beberapa blok dari rumah , aq baru sadar dompet di saku kanan q raib! Ga jadi pulang aq napak tilas kembali ke tc .. menyusuri jalanan di tengah hujan , dan becek penuh genangan air. Aq SEBEL ! Ga ketemu jg, permainan prasangka dimulai, pasti 2 anak muda tadi yang ngambil ....
Magrib , main ke rumah seorang teman dket , di ajak in bisnis , bayangan Aq yang ada di kepala adalah proyek baru , ternyata di prospek entah untuk yang ke berapa kali oleh orang berbeda ... Tiens , tianshi sekarang berganti nama menjadi unicore. Ga tega mengakhiri presentasi , hanya manggut2 dan tidak membantah semua presentasi nya, padahal aq dah hafal di luar kepala ... Hanya mencoba sedikit menghargai kerja keras nya , toh kita sama - sama mencoba meraih MIMPI, hanya cara yang diambil berbeda. Aq anti metode marketing mirip "tree" ini , karena .... yaaa gtu deh !
Capek Deh !!!!!
Malem ada yg nelp nemu in dompet aq , uang nya ilang , tinggal surat2 , aq bersyukur dan dia minta nemuin malam itu jg di depan alfa, aq ga bisa lah ! saat dia telp kayak di steer orang di belakang nya . ILang dah duit 90rbu q,pertanda puasa, tapi aq berharap sim, stnk, atm , gomu2 card, flamboyan & win disc Id card, foto2 yang bejibun ... MBALIK.
Aq bilang gmn kalo besok pagi aja, kn bisa aq ambil di rumah ny yg nemu dompet aq , dia maksa nganter ke rumah , ya udah silahkan ... toh malam ini aq ga ada di rumah , yang nemu in pasti ortu kalo ga adik aq.
Prasangka mengatakan dia lah yang ngambil , tapi bersyukur jg masih dikembalikan isi dompet kecuali duiit. Ga berani cerita ke ortu soalnya nie dah ke 3 kali nya aq kehilangan dompet, 1 kali dicuri bareng hp aq di masjid ITS , yang ke 2 dicopet pas antri parkir di delta, dan ini yang ke 3. Cerita ke sahabat ,atau posting ke bbs rangers juga ga mungkin , mereka pasti bosan dengan cerita kehilangan ini. Jangan2 kemalingan dah jadi citra negatif diri aq. Akhirnya cerita lewat blog ini.
Pas aq cerita ke andry ama dion , eh malah di marah in , karena permainan prasangka yang aq pasang. Mbok ya khusnudzon !! Tapi aq apatis karena ini yang ke 3 kali nya bagi aq , dalam posisi begini.
Tapi intinya aq ikhlas in , ntar malam klo di balik in yo alhamdulillah , kalo ga ya berarti aq harus jadi kuli lagi cari duit !!!!
Flashdisk 1 Giga q ... yang baru aja aq bersih in isinya , ... entah menghilang kemana !!!!
What a messy life i had !!!
A B C D ( Aduh Bo Capekkkk Deh !!!! )

need motivation , just play it !

Lihat Kartu Ucapan Lainnya

cry me a river

hmmmm boleh kah aq mengeluh , masih ada tempat kah buat q mengadu begini coba lah liat keseharian q

• q ada 2 proyek an, single fighter dari mulai coding hingga dokumentasi , yang satu menggunakan vb 6 + sql server , yang lain menggunakan php + mysql. Dan ini target selesai februari ini. TUNTAS

• aq pun ada kerjaan yang selama ini aq tunda - tunda , ikut proyek orang jadi kerja bersama menggunakan asp.net + sql server , dan sistem ini lumayan gedhe , dan sedang dalam tahap belajar pula . Deadline ditetapkan pertengahaan Maret , alias februari ini juga harus selesai

• salah seorang teman minta dibantu ngerjain tesis nya dengan menggunakan spss , hal yang sebenarnya bisa dikerjakan sehari kalo data nya valid dan lengkap , masalah nya data nya loh !!!!

• aq dah berhenti ngeles i , tapi anak les2 an ku terus mbujuk supaya alokasi in wktu aq buat diri nya , dan aq ga bisa menolak

• TA aq , pengin rasanya mulai fokus ngerjain TA , tapi aq kemaren alokasi waktu semalaman seharian suntuk dan tetap belum nembus angka 1% nya . Karena aq milih TA yang aq null tentang nya . Mau dikemana kan muka ku di hadapan dosen pembimbing yang aq hormati .... dan tak ingin kutinggalkan kesan buruk pada nya

• Belum lagi kuliah ku yang di manajemen , entah sudah kutinggal -tinggal berapa kali . Mungkin bakal ku tinggal selama ny :( karena minim nya waktu dalam hidup ku

• Ditambah kebersamaan ama saudara di rumah , sahabat - sahabat di kampus , sohib - sohib masa smu , waaaaaaa aq ga bisa meninggalkan itu semua

• Les Jepang aq minggu ini ujian sementara aq masih buta katakana hiragana apalagi kanji. Ga ada wktu ngapalin huruf2 itu !!!

Bisa liat kan betapa numpuk nya kerja an ku . Mungkin salah aq menerapkan prioritas !!! Walau aq sampe mbelani tidur 3 jam , tetap aja ga bisa selesai , karena ini kepala ga bisa milah - milah .. Andai bisa ada segmentasi dalam isi kepala ku !!!! Dan aq cenderung harus harus mood kalo mau ngerjain sesuatu !!!! Sedihhhhhhhhh !!! Sebel !!!

Dan sayang nya aq ga pantas mengeluh , karena ini merupakan pilihan ku sendiri !!! Cuman aq hanya ingin bilang bahwa aq capek , lelah fisik dan mental , plus smg abis aq berbagi gundah gulana ku ini aq bisa sedikit plong dan kembali berusaha lagi menyelesaikan segala hal yang aq mulai ini dengan se optimal mungkin . FIGHTING !!!! Semangat !!! Ganbate kudasai ne !!!

is there a place that free of noise ? oooo please , i need to go there !

Bloodyhell , It's Suck ... I need Silence , I hate being surrounded by hundred of noise !!!! Mbencekno , Can You just Shut Up Please !!!!!!

feeling sleepy

Huaaa .. oaaahemmm ... yawning hundred of times
I'm a little bit sleepy Need some peaceful rest
Get rid of Any thought that can be burden

Refuse to blog 4 the next 1 month

Inti ne nguantukpoll

New Year's Day is every one's birthday

Surabaya , December 26^th 2006

I’ve got new bed , it’s a nice place to sleep .It’s wraped by a white clean bed cover, It’s obviously comfy J When I went back home in a dawn time , 5.00 am , i suddenly run to my new bed , and have a nice cat sleep ... Oooooo i dreamed about it for so long .

A lot of new stuff in my home , new buffet , new table for the second kompie , new refrigerator , and so on. And Now i’ve been given by my mom , a nice place to dream N sleep J It’s kind of a big bed , yummy It might be a trick from my mom to keep me stay at home . But unfortunately i can’t stay longer at my homy place L

One by one , assignment can be finished .But there’re still plenty of assignment queueing , waiting to be done .

I haven’t finished any modul yet since this week . O my God , if it’s continously happened , i’ll loose my job . And i don’t want to loose it right now . It’s not the matter of money , it’s the matter of time and facilitation that i can get from working as programmer there. Besides the Project Leader is a nice person . He’s willing to teach me even i am blank . I owe much on him

Oh ya , I do have planning to accept “working someone’s final project”. It’s still in negotiation about the price . Frankly speaking , i’m sure i’m able to finish his final project, and i really really need money . Don’t know why i like to save money , so i have the chance to invest in option or LQ45 someday J Besides i want to buy something from my own money , and from my own sweat . I have been independent financially since in the 2nd semester , never asking money from my mom J And buy all stuff from my own effort .

Back about working someone else’s final project. It’s kind a scarry . Neglecting a rule and ethics. I never think this so far. So i’ll think it again and again. But i need money , So ???

O ya , i’ve met the one who want his final project to be done with me . I feel pitty of him , coz he’s in critical zone , he must graduate in this march or he’ll drop out . So , pls forgive me God , I took it as another job ... I’m so sorry .. one of proof that i’m not an idealistic person anymore