Showing posts with label love actually. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love actually. Show all posts

Friday, May 23, 2008

Love cures people, the ones who receive love and the ones who give it, too.




Believe it ?
Now i do believe it ....

I loved someone, but he didn't love me so he left me
Someone loved me, but i didn't pay attention to it. Then he left ... he's not in this present life any more ...

Hmmm ....

Day by day
I forgot about love
Got scared to be hurt by love

Suddenly someone bumped me ...and care and also love Me
I ran out from her love , but i never refused her love

I finally crushed on some other guy , but he's married
so just be a nice secret admirer

Hmmm ...

Now i fall in love again =)
Unfortunately with Gay who try to live normal life

Coz I believe what Lao Tzu said :

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength;
loving someone deeply gives you courage

But then I realize ....

People change and forget to tell each other
So do I ...
Maybe i'll change some other day



Thursday, March 27, 2008

Sha == Gratitude




Real life isn't always going to be perfect or go our way . But the recurring acknowledgement of what is working in our lives can help us not only to survive but surmount our difficulties...

Thank You Lord 4 Giving Me Second Opportunities
I Won't Let U Down
Thank You Lord 4 All the things U Give Me

he who has a thousand friend has not a friend to spare and he who has one enemy will meet him everywhere

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Thx God I have only One that I Love n Care So Much And So Does SHE

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Marhaban ya ramadhan (^____^)





Semoga ramadhan kali ini membawa berkah dan pengampunan
bagi aq dan semua yg mendambakan hal yang sama

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Kecewa pada dunia...GO Blog !!!! (^-------^)


Last Week Days were tough enough
Full of pressure Hundred of demanding from others that i failed to fulfill
Till i reach to where i can't stand it any longer
SO On a weekend
... Just sit back ,& re think
Where am I ?
What am I doing ?
What's next then ?
What do I want ?
What can I do ?
SO ON

Dawn till Dust on 070707,
"nyekar" ke lia, ke MJ, ke tante(All beloved palls ,& forgotten ones )
Then just went to my GrandMa's house (it took 12 hours just to go there)
met and huge all the relatives that i miss so much :)

Sunday noon went back to Sby
Monday morning ,
work ...work ...
With a brand new spirit
With a brand new hope
Don't know what kind of this feeling .... passionate ... maybe

Even i failed in academics stuff this semester ...
i just called it "How unlucky I am! "
but not in a work
Work hours are happy hours for me
Now i have succeeded adapt there
Working with people whose age is same as my parents
But it's not a problem any more

i love the way i do today


I thought that if i loose so many friends ...
i will end up like a poor lonely "Eleanour Rigby"
BUt .... it's not like that ....

People comes people Go
Some left footprints Some aint't

Deal with it ... OK !

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

letter to God



jalan pikiran membuat ku ragu
perlahan mimpi mulai mengganggu
kucoba u/ lanjutkan hidup

will u agree with it ?

The Greatest Pain In Life
Author: Unknown

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
--- To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
--- To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it.
--- When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
--- To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
--- To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
--- To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
--- When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
--- For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
--- When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
--- Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

Tuesday, June 19, 2007

noone's perfect ... anger management of mine is dull


Misfortune shows those who are not really friends.” Aristotle quotes (Ancient Greek Philosopher, Scientist and Physician, 384 BC-322 BC)

Salah aq sendiri terlalu baik ke orang
Berapa lagi kekecewaan yang harus aq alami u/ tetap mempertahankan sikap buruk ini
Finally i decided not always to be a good people
coz sometimes controlling the dark side of MINE is beyond Alam sadar kita
Life is not as beautiful as I hope
So ... Just get used to this real life
THX & SORRY
I'll dissappear as soon as possible

then comes a problem that hurt me so ...

@ the beginning ...

Sunday, June 10, 2007

rejoice in our suffering, suffering produce perseverance, perserverance - character and character hope


Horeeee ...
This week is a quiet week ... it's a holiday ... And then final test will begin soon ...
It means also , one side job of mine (being an asisstant for 2 classes) is over ...
biyuh ... it's finally over

Oops it's almost over (^-^)

I started with a clumsy way , feeling unconfidence , as you know it's a big classes , and only one woman in the class besides me ! .
Just imagine that ...
For me, being visible is unsecure. I never felt comfortable in front of 30 - 60 people .

And when i have to start the class without a lecturer , ooooh it's the worst time
Hehehe ... fortunately these kind of burden(in the beginning) turned to be a challenge
And i passed it ...

Oh ya , Feeling guilty again
@ the end of last months , i asked someone to promote me for a job , coz i need an extra money, but when the job is ready to take,i doubt it for several reasons . Some because of unfinished TA(my undergraduate final project), another flash opportunities from my lecturer that i can't miss & mess up, plust the announcement for COOP comes tooo late.
And the worst thing i'm incapable to say sorry, i just disappear ..
4 JepCoolGuy i'm so sorry , if we meet again, if i ol again , i will ask 4 an apology.

3 june 2007
There's a reunion in DOM's house for 3p2
I was sick but i insist to come . THere i met my senior high school friends.It's fun enough .. laughing all the time (^-^) Except their position , they ain't change at all ... HAHAHAHA ... Wonderful time i had this months .

SOme of them , decide to get a master degree , some works , and coz most of them're doctors , so most decide to practice in hospital ...
The fact is they had graduated ..And most who studied @ ITS 're only able to graduate in march08 or more ... Only one i guess and it's not me who graduates in this sept...

Then in the same weeks got some wise words "Kebahagiaan adanya pada tingkat syukur seseorang" from one of my lecturer , and another friends added "NGapain iri ama yg dah lulus , selama kita g membuang waktu kita begitu aja" ... Sounds i'm looking for a "rationalitation" pembenaran ... It might be true ...

It's all because My TA change from LBS(location based service) into buiding mail service that capable send sms ... It means i had to study all over again mail server (i had bad experience in Computer network practice during 4th semester mostly in IMAP , & SMTP) so i'd never imagine that i will deal with these things all over again .. even i had decide using kerio ....


But listen to my fave song ... then .. it describe my feeling and most of 3p2 gals .. !

SO ADIOS ... Sayonara ... Zai Jian ... Bye ...









Tuesday, May 8, 2007

Life is shorter than i think ... how to cope with death ?

maafkan aq menyinggung kembali hal yang sensitif macam ini





Pearl Jam


Hanya saja, ada perasaan - perasaan ga enak yang aq alami.
Jujur,dah sekian hari ini aq takut tidur, bunga tidur bukan lagi hal yang menyenangkan bagi ku. Perasaan bersalah, perasaan dikejar - dikejar itu yang selalu aq alami saat tidur. Sehingga buat aq tidur merupakan momok.Dan Entah dah berapa minggu air mata terus mengalir , kampus bukan lagi zona nyaman dan aman bagi aq. Too much memory reminds me to someone whom i hurt unconciously ...

Bnernya bulan yang paling aq takutkan adalah bulan april n Mei , di bulan - bulan ini lah aq banyak merasa kehilangan ... April 2006 Aq kehilangan orang tercinta yang selalu aq anggap kakak perempuan terdekat(tante),Mei 2006 sosok org yg aq kagumi n cintai tulus (the one whom i imagine to marry with) passed away coz of traffic accident. Di bulan yang sama , aq & keluarga aq mengalami kecelakaan , pergelangan tangan aq retak di GIPS selama 3 bulan. Don't know why God still trust me , n give me opportunities to live ...

It was last year

This year in April i lost someone who's definitely meaningful to me ..

the main problem i face for the past year n the next years is How to cope with death ... The best way of it

Semoga quote di bawah sdikit bisa memberi pencerahan buat sahabat yang mgkn mengalami hal yang sama yg aq rasakan.Tapi sebenarnya , quote ini buat aq pribadi yang ingin pula aq share buat sahabat.

There is a foundational truth that you must believe: God's love and mercy are infinite. Therefore everything that happens to us in life, good and bad (from our viewpoint), is the best thing, of all possible things

Without belief in God and Divine Justice, death is an incalculable tragedy. It is the end of everything.

Belief in God means triumph over death. Death is not seen as an end, but as a beginning. Our life on earth is only an eye blink; it is over almost before we know it. Our real life, in eternity, then begins. Although we miss people we love when they die, it is just a single phase of our eternal lives,

Someone's life did not end. He/She has just entered into a new and much better phase of his life. He/she will live forever, just as you will. Being with God is being in the Paradise that we were created for. It is a fulfillment and a completion. And when you pass on, you will be united with him/her again.

You can ask God to get messages through to the one you lost. God will surely do this. she will not be able to reply, that it not the way it is, but she will hear what you have to say to her. Don't forget to thank God for doing this for you

Friday, May 4, 2007

Badai membuat pepohonan memperkuat akarnya

Love means to love that which is unloveable, or it is no virtue at all;
forgiving means to pardon the unpardonable, or it is no virtue at all;
faith means believing the unbelievable, or it is no virtue at all;
And to hope means hoping when things are hopeless, or it is no virtue at all.
-G.K. Chesterton-

Quote di atas bisa saja berlaku bagi siapa pun , tapi seems impossible 4 me adapting that quote 2 be my principle of life

Yang saya tau ,Meskipun tak ada orang yang dapat mundur , membuat sebuah awal baru , namun setiap orang punya kesempatan untuk memulai dari sekarang dan membuat akhir yang baru

Di dunia ini , manusia memiliki banyak pilihan . Tapi ada saja batasan . Selalu ada pilihan yang tak boleh kita pilih .. Dan terkadang batasan itu mempermudah manusia menjalani hidup , ibarat jalan panjang tak berujung , batasan pilihan adalah tepian tiap jalan yang kita lalui... Walo terlihat batasan itu membelenggu kita. Tapi apa sih kita , hanya manusia , yang mencoba menjalani hidup yang terbaik demi hidup selanjutnya yang lebih baik...Sebanyak apa sih pilihan hidup kita , sebatas yang telah diberi Elohim

Seperti nya aq kembali salah melangkah
Seperti nya aq kembali di sadar kan
Seperti nya aq harus kembali ke starting point itu
Seperti nya aq bakal sakit jika aq terus memaksakan diri
Seperti nya tiada lagi waktu bagi ku mengenang masa lalu
Seperti nya ini saat yang tepat bagi ku memulai dari null

Dan bukan lagi seperti nya
Yakin , satu lagi kesalahan yang aq lakukan ... Untung dah sadar di awal , kalo ga akan bertambah kesedihan itu ...

Just remember this
Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy

Thursday, May 3, 2007

there is something beautiful in ugly things (^_^)


The Beauty In Ugly ...by Jason Mraz

she's so big hearted,
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
its a pretty person's world

but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own

if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart

you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
well you are fresh, you're face is fabulous
don't forget you're one of a kind

when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart

you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ulgy
well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart and oh
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
see the beauty in a ugly

Thursday, April 26, 2007

One of the best things we can do in our lives is this:



Some good Advice for Me , and for anyone who's lost their own starting point

To solve any problem or to reach your goal, you don't need to know all the answers in advance. But you must have a clear idea of the problem or the goal you want to reach.

All you have to do is know where you're going. The answers will come to you of their own accord.

Don't procrastinate when faced with a big difficult problem, break the problem into parts, and handle one part at a time.


If you can get up the courage to begin, you have the courage to succeed.

It's the job you never start that takes the longest to finish.

Don't worry about what lies dimly at a distance, but do what lies clearly ahead.


Your biggest opportunity is where you are right now. Once you begin you're half done.

when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody You want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible


Do not put limits on yourself.
So many dreams are waiting to be realized.

Decisions are too important to leave to chance. Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying. The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets. Do not take things too seriously. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Realize that it is never too late.
Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.

Have hearth and hope and happiness.
Take the time to wish upon a start.

Believe in your heart that something wonderful is about to happen.


Love your life.


Believe in your own powers and your own potential and in your own innate goodness.

Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive.

Discover each day the magnificent awesome beauty in the world.

Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day.

Reach within to find your own specialness.
Amaze yourself and rouse those around you to the potential of each new day.


Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.

This is the essence of your humanity. Let those who love you help you.

Trust enough to be able to take.
Look with hope to the horizon of today for today is all we truly have.

Live this day well.

Let a little sun out as well as in.

Create your own rainbows.
Be open to all your possibilities - All possibilities and Miracles.

Always believe in Miracles.

Boleh dunk , aq bermimpi ? Boleh dunk , aq berusaha sekuat tenaga mewujudkan mimpi itu ? Boleh kan ! ?!




Thursday, April 12, 2007

Damnly Guilty




Lia paling ga suka dengan ketidakadilan
2 Kali ketidakadilan itu terjadi ke Lia
Dan ketidakadilan itu menempatkanku pada posisi sulit

Menyesal aq !
Menyesal aq berada pada posisi itu
Menyesal aq tidak datang di ultah terakhir mu Januari kemarin
Menyesal aq !

The most beautiful words in the English language are 'not guilty'.

Sunday, April 8, 2007

May Her Memory be Eternal, May Her Souls Rest in Peace

The Gifts of Life, however dear, must sometime pass away...
Yet love and memories remain - - - Eternal gifts that stay

Akhir nya perjuangan lia berakhir sudah
Berbulan - bulan di dera penyakit
Berganti dokter dan rumah sakit demi mendapat diagnosa terbaik
Minggu demi minggu menahan sakit
Sambil tetap menunjukkan senyum terbaiknya ke semua sahabat

Maaf kepada teman - teman Lia yang lain
Maaf kepada teman - teman Lia yang tiada tahu kabar tentang lia selama sakit
Semua ini permintaan Lia
Agar tidak semua orang tau, Lia sedang berjuang
Baru di saat benar - benar kritis , sang Mama memperbolehkan memberitahu kondisi Lia yang sbenarya
Demi memohon doa diberi yang jalan yang terbaik bagi nya !

Berada disamping nya saat Lia tiada
memeluk tubuh kecilnya
meraba pergelangan tangan nya yang memerah penuh bekas suntikan infus
Saat dokter berkata "tiada harapan lagi"
Amarah memuncak tetapi saat melihat lia kesakitan tiap detiknya
Hingga akhirnya segala alat kedokteran dilepas dari tubuh mungilny
Aq hanya bisa menangis
Do Nothing but Cry

Saya yakin
Lia meninggal di hari Baik , Jumat , Subuh pula
Dan karena penderitaan nya yg tiada tara terutama karena salah satu penyakitnya menyerang bagian pencernaan.
Karena rasa sakit yang luar biasa yang dialaminya disamakan dengan jihad
Janji surga u/ nya
Apalagi yang Sholat u/ Lia banyak
Semoga Lia tersenyum simpul dan diterima di sisi Kanan Nya
Selamat Tinggal Lia ...

Terimakasih bersedia menjadi sahabat Aq
Terimakasih bersedia bejibaku bersama selama 4 tahun ini
Terimakasih atas segala nasihat , petuah menangkis keegoisan aq
Terimakasih Smua nya Lia
Keberadaan Mu selama 21 Tahun Kehidupan mu
sudah cukup memberikan arti yang siginifikan

Selamat Tinggal sahabat ku
Selamat tinggal mantan teman kos ku
Selamat tinggal teman pengkaderan ku
Selamat tinggal tutor kuliah ku
Selamat tinggal motivator utama ku
Selamat tinggal Saudara kecilku

Ibarat Meja , aq dah kehilangan satu kaki
Kesemua pijakan goyah
Ketiup angin , aq pun akan jatuh terguling
Tetapi
Aq akan berusaha berjuang
melanjutkan Cita - cita mu
Memberikan contoh terbaik buat adik - adikmu

Lia,Didit belum bisa menyadari bahwa dirimu tiada
Didit masih asyik dengan dunia nya
ketawa bahagia , masih seperti anak kecil tiada dosa
Danang yang paling tergoncang
I Wish U know that , He finaly showed his loving emotion 2 U


Wednesday, April 4, 2007

hope ... pray .. sad .. mode on



What will you do when your lovely best friends the one who always there 4 u the one who always care after u the one who always help u hand in hand got in to big trouble.


N it's a matter of death n life.

But u can do nothing just to ease her pain.

All u can do just pray , cry ... weep all the time :(

Seems uselesss what u're able to do .

Then u just stuck in the middle of nowhere asking what u shouldn't ask, do stupid things, get angry to the god , something that u're not allowed to do.

feeling hopeless ...

Again i'll loose my precious .. pricelesss .. friends , sister ...

TA ... Koq terus ! There's something crucial right now than it ... !

Thursday, March 29, 2007

"Letter To God"

Are you listening?
I'm shooting rubber bands up at the stars
Some days I just don't know where you are
I'm feeling kind of lost down here

I just had to call
I'm not trying to tell how to do your job
Seems like everyone forgot about love
I'm feeling kind of lost down here

[Chorus]
Tell me what does it mean
Are you receiving me?
And if there's something that I forgot
I'll put it down in a letter to god
To you

Would you turn your back?
Maybe we blew every chance we had
Is it so hard to keep this world on track?
When we're standing in your way

[Repeat Chorus]

Sorry for all my mistakes
I know it's hard to relate sometimes
Between you and I
Did we run out of time?

[Chorus]
Tell me what does it mean
Are you receiving me?
And if there's something that I forgot
I'll put it down in a letter to god
And if there's something that I forgot
I'll put it down in a letter to god

To you

Monday, March 26, 2007

LISTEN Now to the gentle whispers of hope


MEMO FROM GOD

To : All_user
Date : Saat ini

From : Penciptamu

Subject : Dirimu sendiri
Reference : Hidup ini

AKUlah penciptamu. Aku akan turut campur dalam segala permasalahan hidupmu. Ingat, Aku tidak membutuhkan bantuanmu. Jika engkau menghadapi situasi sulit yang tidak bisa engkau pecahkan, masukkan ke kotak SFGTD (something for God to do)-mu. Semua masalah akan terselesaikan, namun bukan menurut ukuran waktumu tapi waktuKU. Sekali engkau masukkan masalah ke dalam kotak SFGTD-mu, engkau tidak perlu lagi melanjutkan kekuatiranmu. Lebih baik engkau terjunkan dirimu melanjutkan peran hidupmu saat ini. Jika engkau terjebak kemacetan, jangan bringas. Karena ada orang-orang yang memang ditetapkan mendahuluimu untuk kepentingan yang mengungkapkannya saja dia sudah tidak mampu. Saat engkau merasa hari-hari di kantormu tidak begitu baik, pikirkanlah orang-orang lain yang keluar dari kantor beberapa tahun lalu Ketika hubunganmu memburuk, pikirkanlah orang-orang yang sudah lupa rasa mencintai dan dicintai. Saat engkau masih bisa menggunakan waktu akhir pekan untuk liburanmu; engkau masih lebih beruntung dari wanita penjahit yang bekerja 12 jam sehari, 7 hari seminggu demi anak-anaknya. Saat mobilmu rusak, pikirkanlah orang yang bahkan untuk berjalan saja dia sudah tidak mampu lagi. Ketika engkau berkaca di cermin merapikan rambutmu, pikirkanlah orang yang sedang sakit kanker yang selalu berharap rambutnya segera tumbuh. Ketika engkau merasa menjadi korban dari kesalahan, kegetiran, pengabaian, ketidak-nyamanan orang lain, ingatlah sesuatu atau seseorang dapat saja salah, dan mungkin engkau salah satunya. Banyak hal yang dapat kita jadikan sebagai bahan renungan agar senantiasa disamping kita selalu berjuang menuju hidup yang lebih baik, kita selalu mensyukuri hidup ini. Akankah engkau sampaikan pesan ini ke kawan-kawanmu? Jika ya, paling tidak engkau akan menambah Penghuni Negeri Orang Bahagia. (^--------^)