less rest ... need some ..

If only i have more than one "me"
If only i am able to be there , here , or else @ the same time
If only i have good , fit physical and psychological condition
that can energize and last long more than 24 hours
If only time can be stopped , played , rewind the way i like

If only ...

it'll be easier for me to fulfill anything on demand
i won't let any other down

But that a stupid , riddiculuos , fool wishes

letter to God

jalan pikiran membuat ku ragu
perlahan mimpi mulai mengganggu
kucoba u/ lanjutkan hidup

will u agree with it ?

The Greatest Pain In Life
Author: Unknown

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
--- To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
--- To have someone you care so about so much throw a party... and not tell you about it.
--- When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
--- To have people think that you don't care.
The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
--- To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
--- To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
--- When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.
--- For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
--- When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.
--- Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, and make time for those who are in need?

Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.

Three Stages in Life

In each person's life there are three stages.
When one was young, people said, "He will do something."
as he grew older and did nothing, they said,...
"He could do something if he found himself."
When he was white-haired, people said of him,
"He might have done something if he had tried anything."

Skrg blogger pake bahasa, rada weirdo gtu ...

noone's perfect ... anger management of mine is dull

Misfortune shows those who are not really friends.” Aristotle quotes (Ancient Greek Philosopher, Scientist and Physician, 384 BC-322 BC)

Salah aq sendiri terlalu baik ke orang
Berapa lagi kekecewaan yang harus aq alami u/ tetap mempertahankan sikap buruk ini
Finally i decided not always to be a good people
coz sometimes controlling the dark side of MINE is beyond Alam sadar kita
Life is not as beautiful as I hope
So ... Just get used to this real life
THX & SORRY
I'll dissappear as soon as possible

then comes a problem that hurt me so ...

@ the beginning ...

Hearts is just like a wheel

http://profile.imeem.com/BZVwKj/music/JxR6N-cR/all_the_love_in_the_world/

rejoice in our suffering, suffering produce perseverance, perserverance - character and character hope

Horeeee ...
This week is a quiet week ... it's a holiday ... And then final test will begin soon ...
It means also , one side job of mine (being an asisstant for 2 classes) is over ...
biyuh ... it's finally over

Oops it's almost over (^-^)

I started with a clumsy way , feeling unconfidence , as you know it's a big classes , and only one woman in the class besides me ! .
Just imagine that ...
For me, being visible is unsecure. I never felt comfortable in front of 30 - 60 people .

And when i have to start the class without a lecturer , ooooh it's the worst time
Hehehe ... fortunately these kind of burden(in the beginning) turned to be a challenge
And i passed it ...

Oh ya , Feeling guilty again
@ the end of last months , i asked someone to promote me for a job , coz i need an extra money, but when the job is ready to take,i doubt it for several reasons . Some because of unfinished TA(my undergraduate final project), another flash opportunities from my lecturer that i can't miss & mess up, plust the announcement for COOP comes tooo late.
And the worst thing i'm incapable to say sorry, i just disappear ..
4 JepCoolGuy i'm so sorry , if we meet again, if i ol again , i will ask 4 an apology.

3 june 2007
There's a reunion in DOM's house for 3p2
I was sick but i insist to come . THere i met my senior high school friends.It's fun enough .. laughing all the time (^-^) Except their position , they ain't change at all ... HAHAHAHA ... Wonderful time i had this months .

SOme of them , decide to get a master degree , some works , and coz most of them're doctors , so most decide to practice in hospital ...
The fact is they had graduated ..And most who studied @ ITS 're only able to graduate in march08 or more ... Only one i guess and it's not me who graduates in this sept...

Then in the same weeks got some wise words "Kebahagiaan adanya pada tingkat syukur seseorang" from one of my lecturer , and another friends added "NGapain iri ama yg dah lulus , selama kita g membuang waktu kita begitu aja" ... Sounds i'm looking for a "rationalitation" pembenaran ... It might be true ...

It's all because My TA change from LBS(location based service) into buiding mail service that capable send sms ... It means i had to study all over again mail server (i had bad experience in Computer network practice during 4th semester mostly in IMAP , & SMTP) so i'd never imagine that i will deal with these things all over again .. even i had decide using kerio ....


But listen to my fave song ... then .. it describe my feeling and most of 3p2 gals .. !

SO ADIOS ... Sayonara ... Zai Jian ... Bye ...

A thousand Pray A million ones but One voice ... was heard

Pernah merasa menjadi orang paling O'on sedunia ?
Akhir - Akhir ini Aq selalu merasakan nya .
Sikap inferiority semakin kentara hari demi hari .
Hal ini yang meyakinkan aq ga pantes lulus semester ini.
Knapa ?
Waduh walo cita - cita bukan menjadi programmer ,
tapi entah knapa dg gelar S.Kom dan dengan kemampuan coding aq yg g seberapa
... wah memalukan sekali ....

Minggu ini aq banyak belajar,
bahwa dunia programming yang aq knal masih selebar daun kelor
Tiap saat , tiap detiknya selalu saja ada orang yang membuat aq terkesima dengan kemampuan nya ...
Mau jadi apa aq ini ? M

inggu ini lumayan padat aq belajar, .net remoting , rmi , web services , hibernate , Jboss seam, Cimande.
Hal - hal asing yang cenderung aq hindari ternyata harus aq pelajari juga.
Bisa dikatakan lumayan mengasyikkan , bisa ga tidur aq kalo dah utak atik ini.

Tingkat kemampuan seseorang memang berbeda , buat beberapa orang , coding , logics merupakan hal yang mudah dan bisa diselesaikan dalam waktu singkat.
Tapi tidak buat aq , aq butuh waktu laaaamaaaaa untuk mengerti konsepnya
dan implementasi kan nya ke codingan .
Jadi buat temen2 harap maklum,
kalo saya harus kerja ekstra keras untuk memahami hal - hal ini , yah mgkn dah jalan ny begini ,
harus tertatih - tatih mengejar temen2 ...

Ada yang mengatakan ..
Aq rakus makanya TA aq ga selesai - selesai , tiap ada hal baru n menarik hati langsung di coba - coba , jadinya ga fokus , ruang lingkup melebar kemana - mana ...
Satu hal yang mgkn bisa aq jawab ,
aq merasa masa - masa terakhir kuliah di TC adalah masa - masa paling berharga ,
kapan lagi bisa menikmati masa - masa belajar tanpa tanggungan.
Setelah lulus ?
mungkin kah aq memilih kerja jadi programmer ?
wah g ada yang tau hari esok ...
Jadi Manfaat in waktu - waktu terakhir ini ...
Selama aq bisa mempertanggungjawabkan segalanya termasuk masalah finansial ke ortu ...

Trus ga sedikit orang yang protes bahwa gaya hidup aq ga sehat ,
tidur kurang (kata mereka), ga pernah olah raga , dalam ruangan ber ac trus , ga sehat betul ...
Ya aq akui benar ada nya , tapi tidak sepenuh nya benar.
Karena aq percaya umur dah ada yang ngatur ,
dan aq memang lebih menghargai hidup singkat berkualitas
daripada hidup lama menghabiskan jatah waktu saja ...
Toh smua dari kita pasti menunggu bukan .... ?
Hal yang paling aq takutkan adalah meninggal
saat aq sudah tak produktif lagi , tak berguna, ga bisa ngapa2 in seperti barang terbuang sia - sia ...
Jadi DIE Young ... it's not a problem for me

Tambahan minggu ini banyak tugas , banyak demo dan responsi , smua merasa pada titik lelah nya ,
dosen pun demikian . Mahasiswa pun banyak yang berjibaku terutama yang ke cegat masalah absensi.
Tidak ada dosen yang ingin mahasiswa nya tidak lulus ,
tapi audit dari jurusan menyebabkan peraturan batasan absensi ...
Gesekan konflik terjadi ...
Seandainya semua saling memahami ...
dunia pasti indah :)

tetapi kalo ditanya harapan mu apa ?
Pasti aq jawab LULUS ...
Karena setelah lulus itu berarti aq bisa benar2 lepas menjalani hidup yang aq inginkan , dimana saja ,
karena ortu sudah merasa menyelesaikan tugas nya dan siap melepas aq menempuh jalur hidup baru ...
Lagian mgkn aq dah bosan berlama - lama di kmpus ... bertemu dengan org2 itu saja ...
dan mgkn org2 lain jg merasa dah basi melihat wajah aq ...
Jadi impian terbesar aq saat ini adalah lulus ,toh aq sudah resign , jadi ga ada alasan TA ga selesai2 ..

Hal yang agak aq sesali adalah makin jauh nya aq akan religi. Jauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhhhhhh ...

God Speaking
Author: Unknown

The man whispered, "God, speak to me"
And a meadowlark sang.
But the man did not hear.

So the man yelled "God, speak to me"
And the thunder & lightning rolled across the sky.
But the man did not listen.

The man looked around and said, "God, let me see you."
And a star shined brightly.
But the man did not see.

And, the man shouted, "God, show me a miracle"
And a life was born.
But the man did not notice.

So, the man cried out in despair, "Touch me, God, and let me know you are here"
Whereupon, God reached down and touched the man.
But the man brushed the butterfly away and walked on.

I found this to be a great reminder that God is always around us in the little and simple things that we take for granted.. even in our electronic age... so I would like to add one more:
The man cried "God, I need your help"
And an e-mail arrived reaching out with good news and encouragement.
But the man deleted it and continued crying...

The good news is that you are loved. Don't miss out on a blessing because it isn't packaged the way that you expect.

Forget about Spring .... Now try the alittle bit easy ones .. Jboss Seam

the magic of life -reborn-

It's kinda weirdo why should i post some screen like above
Everything is happened for a reason
Me here for something ...

Minggu ini banyak yang terjadi
ada yang menyenangkan , dan ada pula yang menyedihkan
tapi thx god i'm still alive
masih diberi kesibukan, kebingungan , kehampaan , kebahagian , kecemburuan dan ke-an lainya

Manusia memang komplex
dari mulai anatomi tubuhnya , struktur saraf otak nya apalagi kepribadian nya
Sedang mencoba memahami yang mampu aq pahami
dan menerima apa yang mampu aq terima
plus mencoba mengerti misteri kehidupan

Satire Joke .. but a little bit fun :)

-- Jangan putus asa , tidak semua orang menilai manusia dari fisiknya ..
DONT JUDGE THE BOOK BY THE COVER ..
(Jangan menghukum buku karena dia meninggalkan koper).

-- Jangan salahkan diri anda kalau anda jelek, salahkanlah orangtua anda, karena jelek itu keturunan ..
LIKE FATHER LIKE SON
(Suka bapaknya, suka juga sama anaknya).

-- Perbaiki inner beauty anda, itu kalau anda merasa sisi luar anda udah ancur ga ketolong lagi ..
THE BEAUTY IS UNDER THE SKIN
(Jadi cakep kalo udah ganti kulit)

-- Jgn sakit ati kalo dikatain jelek,cuek aja, pokoknya kafilah m'gonggong [censored] tetap berlalu
.. NO GAIN WITHOUT PAIN
(Ga dapet duit kalo ngga kesakitan dulu...kaya kuda lumping).

-- Jadilah diri anda anda sendiri, kalau anda jelek syukurilah kejelekan anda ..
JUST BEE YOURSELF
(Kesengat tawon, itulah kamu (muka kamu)).

-- Kalau orang lain menilai anda jelek, jangan skeptis, penilaian manusia tidak selalu benar ...
THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE
(Yang bener boleh keluar).

-- Cakep-jelek itu tergantung lingkungan, misalnya anda disini jelek tapi di Afrika bisa paling ganteng
.. THE RIGHT MAN IN THE WRONG PLACE
(Orang disebelah kanan, salah tempat, harusnya disebelah kiri)

-- Cinta tidak memandang cakep atau jelek, gak percaya? Tanyakan hal ini sama orang jelek
.. LOVE IS BLIND
(Pacarilah orang buta).

Life is shorter than i think ... how to cope with death ?

maafkan aq menyinggung kembali hal yang sensitif macam ini

Pearl Jam

Hanya saja, ada perasaan - perasaan ga enak yang aq alami.
Jujur,dah sekian hari ini aq takut tidur, bunga tidur bukan lagi hal yang menyenangkan bagi ku. Perasaan bersalah, perasaan dikejar - dikejar itu yang selalu aq alami saat tidur. Sehingga buat aq tidur merupakan momok.Dan Entah dah berapa minggu air mata terus mengalir , kampus bukan lagi zona nyaman dan aman bagi aq. Too much memory reminds me to someone whom i hurt unconciously ...

Bnernya bulan yang paling aq takutkan adalah bulan april n Mei , di bulan - bulan ini lah aq banyak merasa kehilangan ... April 2006 Aq kehilangan orang tercinta yang selalu aq anggap kakak perempuan terdekat(tante),Mei 2006 sosok org yg aq kagumi n cintai tulus (the one whom i imagine to marry with) passed away coz of traffic accident. Di bulan yang sama , aq & keluarga aq mengalami kecelakaan , pergelangan tangan aq retak di GIPS selama 3 bulan. Don't know why God still trust me , n give me opportunities to live ...

It was last year

This year in April i lost someone who's definitely meaningful to me ..

the main problem i face for the past year n the next years is How to cope with death ... The best way of it

Semoga quote di bawah sdikit bisa memberi pencerahan buat sahabat yang mgkn mengalami hal yang sama yg aq rasakan.Tapi sebenarnya , quote ini buat aq pribadi yang ingin pula aq share buat sahabat.

There is a foundational truth that you must believe: God's love and mercy are infinite. Therefore everything that happens to us in life, good and bad (from our viewpoint), is the best thing, of all possible things

Without belief in God and Divine Justice, death is an incalculable tragedy. It is the end of everything.

Belief in God means triumph over death. Death is not seen as an end, but as a beginning. Our life on earth is only an eye blink; it is over almost before we know it. Our real life, in eternity, then begins. Although we miss people we love when they die, it is just a single phase of our eternal lives,

Someone's life did not end. He/She has just entered into a new and much better phase of his life. He/she will live forever, just as you will. Being with God is being in the Paradise that we were created for. It is a fulfillment and a completion. And when you pass on, you will be united with him/her again.

You can ask God to get messages through to the one you lost. God will surely do this. she will not be able to reply, that it not the way it is, but she will hear what you have to say to her. Don't forget to thank God for doing this for you

Badai membuat pepohonan memperkuat akarnya

Love means to love that which is unloveable, or it is no virtue at all;
forgiving means to pardon the unpardonable, or it is no virtue at all;
faith means believing the unbelievable, or it is no virtue at all;
And to hope means hoping when things are hopeless, or it is no virtue at all.
-G.K. Chesterton-

Quote di atas bisa saja berlaku bagi siapa pun , tapi seems impossible 4 me adapting that quote 2 be my principle of life

Yang saya tau ,Meskipun tak ada orang yang dapat mundur , membuat sebuah awal baru , namun setiap orang punya kesempatan untuk memulai dari sekarang dan membuat akhir yang baru

Di dunia ini , manusia memiliki banyak pilihan . Tapi ada saja batasan . Selalu ada pilihan yang tak boleh kita pilih .. Dan terkadang batasan itu mempermudah manusia menjalani hidup , ibarat jalan panjang tak berujung , batasan pilihan adalah tepian tiap jalan yang kita lalui... Walo terlihat batasan itu membelenggu kita. Tapi apa sih kita , hanya manusia , yang mencoba menjalani hidup yang terbaik demi hidup selanjutnya yang lebih baik...Sebanyak apa sih pilihan hidup kita , sebatas yang telah diberi Elohim

Seperti nya aq kembali salah melangkah
Seperti nya aq kembali di sadar kan
Seperti nya aq harus kembali ke starting point itu
Seperti nya aq bakal sakit jika aq terus memaksakan diri
Seperti nya tiada lagi waktu bagi ku mengenang masa lalu
Seperti nya ini saat yang tepat bagi ku memulai dari null

Dan bukan lagi seperti nya
Yakin , satu lagi kesalahan yang aq lakukan ... Untung dah sadar di awal , kalo ga akan bertambah kesedihan itu ...

Just remember this
Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy

there is something beautiful in ugly things (^_^)

The Beauty In Ugly ...by Jason Mraz

she's so big hearted,
but not so remarkable
just an ordinary humble girl
expecting nothing as we're made to think
its a pretty person's world

but you are beautiful and you better go show it
go look again, you gotta be true to your own

if you really wanna go to the top
do you really wanna win?
don't believe in living normal, just to satisfy demand

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart

you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
well you are fresh, you're face is fabulous
don't forget you're one of a kind

when nobody is checking the deeds you've done
and nobody is hearing your cries
you make all of the fashion statements
just by dressing up your mind

well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart

you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
and see the beauty in ulgy
well if you wanna get free
and if you wanna do the passionate thing
and if you wanna get smart for the sake of your heart and oh
you should own your name and stand up tall
and get real and see the beauty in ugly
see the beauty in a ugly

bnr2 g penting

Sudah 2 hari waktu mengerjakan ,
dah lewat 2 hari pengumpulan buku dan program masih banyak error plus jelek banget .
Malu Aq
Hari pertama terbuang u/ ikut tes kerja an
trus sorenya ketemuan ama tmn lama , tmn masa sma .
Walaupun lumayan singkat cmn 3 jam , dah bikin hati bahagia bgt.

Hari kedua terbuang karena kompie tmp ngerjain TA penuh dengan virus ,
dan bodohnya lagi virus ny dah pernah kena ,
trus kna lagi ,
alhasil waktu terbuang percuma , format drive , scan cari virus , copy paste data , instal ulang aplikasi lain nya

... BIkin SEBEL n BETE deh

Knapa ya ?
Setiap menuju deadline , ada aja hambatan yang datang ....
Daripada mood bertambah buruk , ya udah nonton spiderman 3 ...
Terbuang lagi waktu ... tapi ya gimana lagi ...

progress TA 1

final result , won't change any more tool , any library more :
>> Netbeans 5.5 + visual webpack
>> JSF framework
>> Jasper Report
>> WMA (JSR ...) --> u/ send & retrieve sms
>> LBS (JSR 179)--> pengenalan lokasi nya
>> ORACLE XE
>> Rational Rose
>> Power Designer 9
>> JDK Sonny Ericsson
>> Wireless + J2ME + Netbeans mobility pack

One of the best things we can do in our lives is this:

Some good Advice for Me , and for anyone who's lost their own starting point

To solve any problem or to reach your goal, you don't need to know all the answers in advance. But you must have a clear idea of the problem or the goal you want to reach.

All you have to do is know where you're going. The answers will come to you of their own accord.

Don't procrastinate when faced with a big difficult problem, break the problem into parts, and handle one part at a time.

If you can get up the courage to begin, you have the courage to succeed.

It's the job you never start that takes the longest to finish.

Don't worry about what lies dimly at a distance, but do what lies clearly ahead.

Your biggest opportunity is where you are right now. Once you begin you're half done.

when you realise you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody You want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible

Do not put limits on yourself. So many dreams are waiting to be realized.

Decisions are too important to leave to chance. Reach for your peak, your goal and you prize.

Nothing wastes more energy than worrying. The longer one carries a problem the heavier it gets. Do not take things too seriously. Live a life of serenity, not a life of regrets.

Realize that it is never too late. Do ordinary things in an extraordinary way.

Have hearth and hope and happiness. Take the time to wish upon a start.

Believe in your heart that something wonderful is about to happen.

Love your life.

Believe in your own powers and your own potential and in your own innate goodness.
Wake every morning with the awe of just being alive.
Discover each day the magnificent awesome beauty in the world.
Explore and embrace life in yourself and in everyone you see each day.
Reach within to find your own specialness.
Amaze yourself and rouse those around you to the potential of each new day.

Don't be afraid to admit that you are less than perfect.
This is the essence of your humanity. Let those who love you help you.

Trust enough to be able to take.
Look with hope to the horizon of today for today is all we truly have.
Live this day well.
Let a little sun out as well as in.
Create your own rainbows.
Be open to all your possibilities - All possibilities and Miracles.
Always believe in Miracles.

Boleh dunk , aq bermimpi ? Boleh dunk , aq berusaha sekuat tenaga mewujudkan mimpi itu ? Boleh kan ! ?!

Sometimes if you want to know what's right for you , you've to figure it out what's wrong first !

Chayo ! Fighting ! Ganbate !

You see,
you can do anything
if you put your focus on how to do it
rather than on why you can't
This is What I call Challenge
Remember, Dreams will never hurt you ,
until you hurt yourself by always seeing the dark side ,the failure
than the bright side , the joy of success

Damnly Guilty

Lia paling ga suka dengan ketidakadilan
2 Kali ketidakadilan itu terjadi ke Lia
Dan ketidakadilan itu menempatkanku pada posisi sulit

Menyesal aq !
Menyesal aq berada pada posisi itu
Menyesal aq tidak datang di ultah terakhir mu Januari kemarin
Menyesal aq !

The most beautiful words in the English language are 'not guilty'.

Misfortune shows who's friends really are !

7 days after she's gone ...

Don't know what 2 say , n what 2 share
The whole one week, i can't focus 2 anything
Just do useless things with no purpose

But this morning
As you know i've never exercised for the past 3 years
coz i'm kind of lazy or have no time to do that (I deliberately don't like sports )
aq harus nuntun motor aq yg mogok dari kertajaya samsat ampe bengkel gebang
Dasar bodoh , knp mikirnya cmn bengkel di gebang , knp g kepikiran bengkel lain yg lebih Dkat !
Lumayan lah olahraga pagi buat aq
Alhasil asistensi pikti pagi aq minta tolong dengan sangat ke feqi gnti in

During the journey 2 the service motor , all i think is about surroundings
Usually in the morning , I got busy with my own daily activities , have no time or opportunities to see the beauty of sun rise , to see the strugle of Marginal people and so on

BUt this morning i got this chance

TA aq dah ditagih , tapi aq masih null ..
PIYE IKI ..
hiks .. hiks

KOq sepertinya aq ingin menghindar
berlari menjauh
Nah kalo lari terus
kapan mari ne ?
Kapan selesainya !

Ooops, I just want to attend "mobile content 4 3G workshop in Jakarta - Involve in E~Volve" which's held by Erricsson, But have no friend to accompanied with... So ...
Jadi bingung , biasany aq ajak lia , dan skrg dia g ad ...

May Her Memory be Eternal, May Her Souls Rest in Peace

The Gifts of Life, however dear, must sometime pass away...
Yet love and memories remain - - - Eternal gifts that stay

Akhir nya perjuangan lia berakhir sudah
Berbulan - bulan di dera penyakit
Berganti dokter dan rumah sakit demi mendapat diagnosa terbaik
Minggu demi minggu menahan sakit
Sambil tetap menunjukkan senyum terbaiknya ke semua sahabat

Maaf kepada teman - teman Lia yang lain
Maaf kepada teman - teman Lia yang tiada tahu kabar tentang lia selama sakit
Semua ini permintaan Lia
Agar tidak semua orang tau, Lia sedang berjuang
Baru di saat benar - benar kritis , sang Mama memperbolehkan memberitahu kondisi Lia yang sbenarya
Demi memohon doa diberi yang jalan yang terbaik bagi nya !

Berada disamping nya saat Lia tiada
memeluk tubuh kecilnya
meraba pergelangan tangan nya yang memerah penuh bekas suntikan infus
Saat dokter berkata "tiada harapan lagi"
Amarah memuncak tetapi saat melihat lia kesakitan tiap detiknya
Hingga akhirnya segala alat kedokteran dilepas dari tubuh mungilny
Aq hanya bisa menangis
Do Nothing but Cry

Saya yakin
Lia meninggal di hari Baik , Jumat , Subuh pula
Dan karena penderitaan nya yg tiada tara terutama karena salah satu penyakitnya menyerang bagian pencernaan.
Karena rasa sakit yang luar biasa yang dialaminya disamakan dengan jihad
Janji surga u/ nya
Apalagi yang Sholat u/ Lia banyak
Semoga Lia tersenyum simpul dan diterima di sisi Kanan Nya
Selamat Tinggal Lia ...

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Selamat Tinggal sahabat ku
Selamat tinggal mantan teman kos ku
Selamat tinggal teman pengkaderan ku
Selamat tinggal tutor kuliah ku
Selamat tinggal motivator utama ku
Selamat tinggal Saudara kecilku

Ibarat Meja , aq dah kehilangan satu kaki
Kesemua pijakan goyah
Ketiup angin , aq pun akan jatuh terguling
Tetapi
Aq akan berusaha berjuang
melanjutkan Cita - cita mu
Memberikan contoh terbaik buat adik - adikmu

Lia,Didit belum bisa menyadari bahwa dirimu tiada
Didit masih asyik dengan dunia nya
ketawa bahagia , masih seperti anak kecil tiada dosa
Danang yang paling tergoncang
I Wish U know that , He finaly showed his loving emotion 2 U

hope ... pray .. sad .. mode on

What will you do when your lovely best friends the one who always there 4 u the one who always care after u the one who always help u hand in hand got in to big trouble.

N it's a matter of death n life.

But u can do nothing just to ease her pain.

All u can do just pray , cry ... weep all the time :(

Seems uselesss what u're able to do .

Then u just stuck in the middle of nowhere asking what u shouldn't ask, do stupid things, get angry to the god , something that u're not allowed to do.

feeling hopeless ...

Again i'll loose my precious .. pricelesss .. friends , sister ...

TA ... Koq terus ! There's something crucial right now than it ... !

"Letter To God"

Are you listening?

I'm shooting rubber bands up at the stars
Some days I just don't know where you are
I'm feeling kind of lost down here

I just had to call
I'm not trying to tell how to do your job
Seems like everyone forgot about love
I'm feeling kind of lost down here

[Chorus]
Tell me what does it mean
Are you receiving me?
And if there's something that I forgot
I'll put it down in a letter to god
To you

Would you turn your back?
Maybe we blew every chance we had
Is it so hard to keep this world on track?
When we're standing in your way

[Repeat Chorus]

Sorry for all my mistakes
I know it's hard to relate sometimes
Between you and I
Did we run out of time?

[Chorus]
Tell me what does it mean
Are you receiving me?
And if there's something that I forgot
I'll put it down in a letter to god
And if there's something that I forgot
I'll put it down in a letter to god

To you

LISTEN Now to the gentle whispers of hope

MEMO FROM GOD

To : All_user
Date : Saat ini
From : Penciptamu
Subject : Dirimu sendiri
Reference : Hidup ini

AKUlah penciptamu. Aku akan turut campur dalam segala permasalahan hidupmu. Ingat, Aku tidak membutuhkan bantuanmu. Jika engkau menghadapi situasi sulit yang tidak bisa engkau pecahkan, masukkan ke kotak SFGTD (something for God to do)-mu. Semua masalah akan terselesaikan, namun bukan menurut ukuran waktumu tapi waktuKU. Sekali engkau masukkan masalah ke dalam kotak SFGTD-mu, engkau tidak perlu lagi melanjutkan kekuatiranmu. Lebih baik engkau terjunkan dirimu melanjutkan peran hidupmu saat ini. Jika engkau terjebak kemacetan, jangan bringas. Karena ada orang-orang yang memang ditetapkan mendahuluimu untuk kepentingan yang mengungkapkannya saja dia sudah tidak mampu. Saat engkau merasa hari-hari di kantormu tidak begitu baik, pikirkanlah orang-orang lain yang keluar dari kantor beberapa tahun lalu Ketika hubunganmu memburuk, pikirkanlah orang-orang yang sudah lupa rasa mencintai dan dicintai. Saat engkau masih bisa menggunakan waktu akhir pekan untuk liburanmu; engkau masih lebih beruntung dari wanita penjahit yang bekerja 12 jam sehari, 7 hari seminggu demi anak-anaknya. Saat mobilmu rusak, pikirkanlah orang yang bahkan untuk berjalan saja dia sudah tidak mampu lagi. Ketika engkau berkaca di cermin merapikan rambutmu, pikirkanlah orang yang sedang sakit kanker yang selalu berharap rambutnya segera tumbuh. Ketika engkau merasa menjadi korban dari kesalahan, kegetiran, pengabaian, ketidak-nyamanan orang lain, ingatlah sesuatu atau seseorang dapat saja salah, dan mungkin engkau salah satunya. Banyak hal yang dapat kita jadikan sebagai bahan renungan agar senantiasa disamping kita selalu berjuang menuju hidup yang lebih baik, kita selalu mensyukuri hidup ini. Akankah engkau sampaikan pesan ini ke kawan-kawanmu? Jika ya, paling tidak engkau akan menambah Penghuni Negeri Orang Bahagia. (^--------^)

De Ja Vu - Where R U Mr Curiousity - desperately looking 4 Ur Existence

Hey Mr. Curiosity
Is it true what they've been saying about you
Well are you killing me
You took care of the cat already
And for those who think it's heavy
Is it the truth
Or is it only gossip
Call it mystery or anything
Oh just as long as you call me
I sent the message on did you get it when I left it
Said well this catastrophic event
It wasn't meant to mean no harm
But to think there's nothing wrong is a problem, oh

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
This love is a mystery
Mr. Curious...

Come back to me
I'm a mr. waiting on and never patient can't you see
That I'm the same the way you left me, left me
In a hurry to spell check me
And I'm underlined already in envy green
And then to red
And I've forgotten what you've said
Will you stop working for the dead and return
A mr. curious well I need some inspiration
It's my birthday and I cannot find no cause for celebration
The scenario is grave but I'll be braver when you save me
From this situation laden with hearsay, oh

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
This love is a mystery
Mr. Curiosity
Hey mr. please
Do come and find me, oh
Oh ,come on oh, yea yea

I'm looking for love this time
Sounding hopeful but it's making me cry
(Trying not to ask why)
Cause love is a mystery
Mr. curiosity
Hey mr. please
Do come and find me

Love is blinding when your timing's never right
Oh but who am I to beg for difference
Finding love in a distant instant
But I don't mind
Oh love at least I tried, well I tried...

Laziness is nothing more than the habit of resting before you get tired.

Ni lei ma ?
Wo lei le

Wo hen Lei Le

Thx God That i still have plenty things to be done
When Smarter , Harder , n Faster , is not enough , what will you do then ?

Farewell! God knows when we shall meet again. ~Shakespeare~

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.

I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.

Somehow I know N I hope ... damnly hope
We'll meet again
Not sure quite where
And I don't know just when
You're in my heart
So until then
It's time for saying goodbye...

still I am searching...
For things that don't exist; I mean beginnings.
Ends and beginnings - there are no such things.
There are only middles.

Goodbyes are not forever.
Goodbyes are not the end.
They simply mean I'll miss you
Until we meet again!
~ IS IT ~

You and I will meet again
When we're least expecting it
One day in some far off place
I will recognize your face
I won't say goodbye .. promise
For you and I will meet again
~Will it Happen ? ~

If I leave here that day nope this day , will you still remember me? ~Who knows ?~
hiks .. hiks :(

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some stay for a while, leave footprints on our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. ~Flavia Weedn, Forever, © Flavia.com


Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. ~Theodor Seuss Geisel~