Stephen Hawking

personally, i'm sure that the universe began with a hot big bang, but will it gone on foreverand and if not how will it end. I'm much less certain about that. The expansion of the universe spreads everithing out, but gravity tries to pull it all back together again. Our destiny depends on which force will win. On the influence of gravity in turn depends the universe on what made of and just how much of it there is. it won't be easy to find out if, as we suspect, most of it is dark matter, stuff we can't even see

Another poem about woman - Me - ^o^

A Strong Woman vs Woman of Strength
Author: Unknown

A strong woman works out every day to keep her body in shape...
but a woman of strength kneels in prayer to keep her soul in shape...

A strong woman isn't afraid of anything...
but a woman of strength shows courage in the midst of her fear...

A strong woman won't let anyone get the best of her...
but a woman of strength gives the best of her to everyone...

A strong woman makes mistakes and avoids the same in the future...
a woman of strength realizes life's mistakes can also be God's blessings and capitalizes on them...

A strong woman walks sure footedly...
but a woman of strength knows God will catch her when she falls...

A strong woman wears the look of confidence on her face...
but a woman of strength wears grace...

A strong woman has faith that she is strong enough for the journey...
but a woman of strength has faith that it is in the journey that she will become strong...

the long & winding road of S E R E N D I P I T Y

Sumpah aq ga bsa ngerti jalan pikiran ny . Org yg paling bikin aq pnasaran ya Kamu ... Org yg akan aq hindari ya Kmu .Pls jgn mendekat , biar aq merasakan mu menghilang setapak demi setapak dulu , biarkan hati ini tenang dulu . Tolong .... Hindari aq ... Baru setelah jiwa ku tenang ... Aq kmbali lagi menjadi rekan , ataupun lawan mu

Kmren abis baca komik based on true story ny Aki Mukai , jadi inget Tante... Aq pun nangis menjadi – jadi . Sampe skrg perih rasanya ingat bagian kelam ini

Jadi inget Tahun ini , seseorang yng aq anggap pujaan , org yg ingin aq nikahi , suara ny yg khas , senyum ramah ny ... sudah dipanggil Yang Kuasa , di usia yg blm gnap 27 . Aq pun jadi patah hati ... Ga tau musthi berbuat apa... Hopeless g ad gambaran pasangan impian lagi , Selalu terngiang akan bayangan – bayangan ny . Org yg aq hormati , org yg aq kagumi , telah tiada. Ga nyangka aq bisa tergoncang sdemikian hebat krn kepergianmu ... Mas

Di saat mencoba merenda hari – hari yng normal , kujalin hub dengan wortel . Buaikkk bgt , org yg mau sama aq . Mau nerima aq ap adany . Org yg mau meluangkan waktunya memperhatikan ku dan mencoba membuat ku tersenyum. Sedikit tergerak hati ku , kucoba balas budi , dengan mengikuti apa saja yg ia mau . Namun sayang perbedaan agama merupakan pemisah mutlak. Jadi ...

Waaaa , masak di umur 21 aq dah males memulai hubungan lagi , aq dah ga mau yg namanya jalinan kasih . wis Capek aq , mencari soulmate yg tepat . Udah lah ... aq hnya ingin berteman dengan sebanyak2 ny , dan ga mau mikir hal absurd macam ini . Aq jadi apatis loooo h

Inget Serendipity kn ?

Klo emg jodoh y ga bakal lari kemana

Intinya 2007 aq mutung masalah ini ... sesuatu yg ga bisa di logika L

some Said Love will find you i f you try , but at this moment i believe that Let Love Find You And never Find Love

New Year's Day is every one's birthday

Surabaya , December 26^th 2006

I’ve got new bed , it’s a nice place to sleep .It’s wraped by a white clean bed cover, It’s obviously comfy J When I went back home in a dawn time , 5.00 am , i suddenly run to my new bed , and have a nice cat sleep ... Oooooo i dreamed about it for so long .

A lot of new stuff in my home , new buffet , new table for the second kompie , new refrigerator , and so on. And Now i’ve been given by my mom , a nice place to dream N sleep J It’s kind of a big bed , yummy It might be a trick from my mom to keep me stay at home . But unfortunately i can’t stay longer at my homy place L

One by one , assignment can be finished .But there’re still plenty of assignment queueing , waiting to be done .

I haven’t finished any modul yet since this week . O my God , if it’s continously happened , i’ll loose my job . And i don’t want to loose it right now . It’s not the matter of money , it’s the matter of time and facilitation that i can get from working as programmer there. Besides the Project Leader is a nice person . He’s willing to teach me even i am blank . I owe much on him

Oh ya , I do have planning to accept “working someone’s final project”. It’s still in negotiation about the price . Frankly speaking , i’m sure i’m able to finish his final project, and i really really need money . Don’t know why i like to save money , so i have the chance to invest in option or LQ45 someday J Besides i want to buy something from my own money , and from my own sweat . I have been independent financially since in the 2nd semester , never asking money from my mom J And buy all stuff from my own effort .

Back about working someone else’s final project. It’s kind a scarry . Neglecting a rule and ethics. I never think this so far. So i’ll think it again and again. But i need money , So ???

O ya , i’ve met the one who want his final project to be done with me . I feel pitty of him , coz he’s in critical zone , he must graduate in this march or he’ll drop out . So , pls forgive me God , I took it as another job ... I’m so sorry .. one of proof that i’m not an idealistic person anymore

Surabaya , December 20th 2006

Today is a real bad day for me . Number of hours I wasted just for “Network Security”. Code And make some program about encryption .Finally i could do it deliberately with Netbeans 5.5
Oh God , I hate living like this. I just want to cry . I feel lonely. I’ve done nothing except duty , homework and so on…….. Aq Sebel. Bloody hell my life is s***.

the truth is that every time a door closes behind us , the rest of the world opens up in front of us. All we need to do is stop pounding the door that is now closed , turn around , and see the largeness of life that now lies open to our soul

Parker J Palmer

Can you imagine there’re plenty of stuff that need to be done this week . Business Simulation with ARENA .. Oh NO !!!!!!! I ask KaitoKid the one i dunno know about to make it possible to be done N deadline is tomorrow , it means this night i’ve to stay till late doing it ... hiks ... hiks ... hua ... hua ARENA is one of powerful tool to make a simulation with ant statistical problem from exponensial distribution till poison , and the good thing is It also capable to be IDE for programming (coding) using Visual Basic (VB) Language. It can also connect and generate excel , any kind of nice report , visio , and the best part is it can change design of simulation of business the way we like .

And the next day , Software Quality ‘s waiting . It’s also absurd assignments , without clear description , no boundary , with strict and uncapable lecturer.From googling , i evaluate my faculty website with sitesweeper and website evaluation tool from the internet , and ther result , ftif.its.ac.id is terrible sites , with hundred of problem such as broken link and bla .. bla

It also means that tomorrow i must sleep again in Lab

And what about “ My Work“ ?? I luv asp.net (vs 2005) ,it make you code in a simple way :) But too much modul that need also to be done before the end of december. Oh no ...

Feeling so sad , so blue , so alone , no wortel for the next new year , no wortel for this christmast

Hiks .. hiks .. hua .. hua..

How about my final project , the untouchable ones

Oh God sometimes Just pray

Please send me to your next place

I get depressed here

I get bored & sometimes feeling underpressure here

I hate my boring life

This kind of emptiness

This kind of tiny little sorrow

This kind of bad feeling

This kind of blurry objectives

This kind of pain in the heart

Some thing seems want to come out

Some thing tend to errupt immediately

Is it because of my disease ???